I Am That I Am

Lately, I’ve been looking at life from a distance, as if I’m watching through a window instead of standing inside it. When I drive, I sometimes feel like I’m not the one behind the wheel at all. Something deeper is guiding this body, this version of me. It’s a strange feeling, but also a familiar one, like I’ve been trying to remember a truth I once knew and forgot.

I keep asking myself what I should be investing in. Is it this body, this character I walk around in every day? Is it the world around me, this community that sometimes feels more like a simulation than a home? Or is it the inner self, the quiet driver behind the eyes? Some call it consciousness. Some call it the soul. Others call it spirit.

In the Bible, when Moses asked God who He was, God said, “I am that I am.” I used to think that was just mysterious language, but the older I get, the more it feels like a key. Maybe God wasn’t describing Himself as much as describing us. Maybe “I am” is the essence of every living thing.

For years I chased goals as if they were outside of me. I thought time, money, luck, or talent were what separated me from where I wanted to be. But maybe the only thing standing in the way was readiness. Maybe I wasn’t ready to accept the truth that was always waiting for me: I am in control. I decide who I am, how I show up, and what I create in this world.

That realization is both freeing and heavy. I could have been a bodybuilder, an athlete, an astronaut. I could have been anything, because the truth is, we all can. That’s the beauty and the burden of being alive. God gave us choice, and with it came the weight of creation.

I don’t think Judgment Day will be about whether we broke rules or made mistakes. I think it will be much simpler. It will be a single question whispered from the part of us that has always known the answer: Did you use your time to become who you truly are? Did you dare to be yourself?

And when that question comes, it won’t come from the sky. It will rise quietly from within. Because in the end, the voice of God will sound exactly like your own.

Later,

DD